Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Key words.

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I broke the screen of my nokia x6 :| Its cracked coz I stupidly kept it on the desk , quite close to the edge and it fell after a slight touch of my own hand! I'm worse than a diaster to my cell phone. I just can't handle it right , can I ?
My mom said to me that I shouldn't buy cell phone at all. And even when I do - not one costing more than 5k.
Others are making fun too.And I've been laughing along.
But the truth is - I feel very pathetic about it.
My cell's working in parts. Half the touch is working , and the other half is dormant.
That has saved all the tears so far.

Somehow I've also formed a new theory.
My phone was jinxed.
Zee never liked me buying it. She told me I should have got a BB.
And she has been constantly asking me to sell x6. Looks like her wish is soon going to be executed :O

Anyhow..this is certainly not how I would have liked the curtains to drop for this year.I've been tagging it as the worst thing to happen to me.
but  hey..a joke there too. "Not yet...4 more days to go."
Ya right , as if am gonna break it into two pieces.

But ofcourse , there's a point.
4 more days to go.
And a lot can happen.

Rewinding this year minus the 4 days to come.. here's a snapshot of the things I reckon the most , of the lessons I will never quite learn :P


Each word is a key to locked stories which links to other doors.
Its an ocean of flashback for me.
A lot of keys haven't been put in this box. I don't have the energy to edit this now.As simple as that huh

Monday, December 13, 2010

Hell and Heaven

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 Hell & heaven are two most commonly used words or phrases.
On an average cursing involves sending someone to hell as if it were allowed and feasible by law.
And heaven covers picturesque beauty , scrumptious food , chocolates , friends & all the stuff that one finds pleasant.

Now coming to the actual meaning of these two imagined destinations , popular mostly through various religions which define them exponentially - there's a hell lot of stuff that you gotta be knowing!

So I'm quoting through my religion.[Hindu] One of our religious books which I read a couple of months back..describes hell so badly that for a moment I didn't want to belong to my religion. Its scary even if there's no proof of grantee of  your ticket to hell.

And then there was this whole list of what happens if you commit a sin.What happens in hell that is.
I can't point out a lot from what I read  - all I can say is it scared the hell out of me!

Strangely there's no major description as to what awaits you in heaven!

Back in Aug when I'd been to Mathura..we went to this temple where there were paintings all over the wall with one part talking about sins and the other its repercussions.
There was the usual..with what if you lie , what if you kill animals and eat ( two monsters roast you ; possibly just in the same way you had your barbecue )
The funny part is there was something about what happens if a wife mis-treats her husband!  and of course what if the husband mistreats his wife. Equal rules.
Then quite surprisingly - there was one painting talking about infidelity. First time I've seen or read anything close to that in my religion!

Ok so the whole point I'm trying to make is - none of us are saints! We all have our share of minor sins and we all somewhere have also done something good to someone else. So where does that put us ? I mean..hypothetically if we were to be send to one of these , where would we go ? Stranding between hell & heaven , I guess ? I know nobody knows how much of this is applicable. I mean all these talks are obviously a result of hundreds of thousands of old stories. And then nobody comes back to confirm any of it either! But I feel such kind of stories were made & written so that people were afraid of committing 'sins'. Which nobody to this day is!  If lying or eating non veg food is sin...then hell ought to be large enough ;)

I'm not 'superstitious' or supremely religious. This was something I had always been thinking of.
In my opinion , the concept of hell and heaven is just overrated.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Surviving 'our' party!

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I'm back from a sexy party which was at my uncle's farmhouse.
Sexy as in not 'sexy'.
Sexy for the awesomeness and the fun :D
Ok you do get it..I just wanted to fit that word somewhere in my write up , lol

It was just  a family affair . . . full of surprises and warm wishes.
So it was the 25th wedding anniversary of my maternal uncle and aunt. Their two sons and fastest friend took the initiative to make a video of about one hour ; recording clips from most of the family members and close friends without the couple ever getting any hint of it.
There was a chain of admiration , love , praises & a pinch of humor  for the wonderful couple in that small film titled ' 1985 , A Love Story'
The video editing was fantastic!

And just like in movies..some of the rough unedited clips were rolled out during credits. :D It was hilarious!!
Worth mentioning - the first credit
Make up
By themselves

lol :D

I wonder when we would learn to click a lot of snaps!  I'm usually the most devoted shutterbug :P
But nobody listens to me..and the clicking is delayed for no good , the end result being sulking over an almost empty folder.

That night we stayed awake till 6 in morning. Uptil 2.30 -3 - the elders were along with us too. Then they made a wise decision of moving out so we could have our hookah session :P

These mini slumber parties that we cousins have are  funnier than barrels of monkeys.
Ocean of madness.Limitless insults.Filthiest jokes , lol and of course harmless ( so far ) Hangover.
I survived the last party :D That's how I'm now a member of this coveted club. *smugs*

Friday, November 26, 2010

Irksome

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=> Why do you give a rat ass about WHY 'someone' did or said something ? Someone whom you just  know.Not even a friend! As long as it doesn't affect you directly or even indirectly ..why do you give a damn ?! Stop stupidifying others ( that's not even  a word , I know ) .
Just because you tag somebody fool , it doesn't make you any bit smarter. You're smart because you're smart and not because someone else is a fool! There's a difference  for crying out loud! :X


=> The only time I swear REAL BAD and am not at all shamed is when I drive.
The traffic is !@$%^&* and the commuters are  !@#$%^&*
Together the traffic sense is horrific !@#$%^&*


=> I was such a cry baby earlier.I went over my diary entries written five years back and I have no idea what the F is all that about! :X  Crap. Real crap.


=>  I've been working out..not consistently but working out nevertheless! Doing yoga too. I would have felt a lil bad if I were to know that I haven't lost any weight. But the fact that I've put on despite all my efforts is driving me crazy! Nothing on earth can be more annoying!!


=> I don't find The Secret applicable to my life. Whatever I've tried attracting - I've only found results to be poles apart.
Ok. . . . the truth is - I have Zero patience.

# CALVIN
That's the difference between me and the rest of the world! Happiness isn't good enough for me! I demand euphoria!

Friday, November 19, 2010

The female & male brain!

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My friend tagged me over the Indecision Nucleus ! :P
If you were to consider 'my'  brain and not just the female brain in general..the indecision nucleus would hover over most parts of my brain!


Its not too surprising to see what dominates the male brain ;)  lol and its quite funny :D



Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Tales to tell

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My friend's friend soberly claimed that he has eaten tortoise. Another one added that turtles are tasty.Then the tortoise eater argued that turtles are never eaten.Whatever ...why were they even discussing this ?!  I was already disgusted.
Ok , I've heard all kinds of things being eaten..but tortoise ?? WTF!

And there's more. This tortoise eater guy had a friend from Nepal who used to eat dogs. The dog-eater guy told the tortoise eater about this when he was at the latter's home , playing with his pet dog :P lol

We rolled on floor laughing when we got to know that the tortoise eater's pet dog was bitten by another dog :D Hahaa! Lol..the guy sounds fun.I mean his stories does. I should talk to him more.As long as he avoids telling what all he has eaten :-|

If there's anything tortoise reminds me of ..its that when I was a kid - I used to say 'tor-to-toise'  :D Funny memory.And now am so gonna hate  the word tortoise even being mentioned because my brain will process pictures of it being served as meal :S WTF!

* more on brain. Next time.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Spend-o-holic

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Golmaal
Singh Is King
Welcome
All the Best

I haven't seen all that crap.
I would rather watch an old movie twice ( the one I like ) than spending over such bullshit. But then , I went to see Golmaal 3 ( and previously dabangg as well - for which I didn't pay :P so I don't count it )
The first half bored me. The second half made me laugh in instalments at the stupidity. No real humor! No wise cracks. Bekar! [ I was told the movie is awesome !! ]

The funny part about these movies isn't that they are ridiculous -- its that somebody on earth could even think of it!!  

Note : You can still watch golmaal 3. I just can't take that kind of stuff. Maybe you won't find it bad.



--- I spent 600 bucks in two days on movie , popcorn , diet coke , subway sandwich , chilli paneer and fuel :P Its not a good thing!! What happened to being miser ?? :P
I'm running out of my saved money ( Saved is all that I was given for shopping - over few months! - or income earned from several wonderful Indian traditions  :D  ..all of that which I never spent )

I'm waiting for Due date & The Social Network to release.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

How does festival and guilt taste ?

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I really loathe it when discussions at home within extended family turn to studies and careers.
 I mean , of course that's bound to happen since the most talked about topics are - the stock market and other business related stuff - But I seriously dislike it.

Its like my guilt syrup.

I don't know what's happening.Where life is moving.What's going to happen. Of course nobody knows that...but the point is I'm tired of all my questions. Not a single one is being answered. Not a single road is unblocked. Not a single step has been made. Either I backtrack or I simply don't turn up. Either I'm a coward or I'm pushing away the opportunities  ( that's a big word for whatever came knocking at my door )
Or I'm just a loser.


Whatever it is...all I know is 'waiting' for something good to happen won't happen at all , after- all.
Worse is I don't even have wild ideas. Crazy I mean.Something I'd just take up for a revolution and do it , come rain or shine.As for the routine non-crazy ideas ...I don't have enough conviction.

Basically I feel the part of my brain which is supposed to generate ideas is rusted.

What the hell! :O

-*-*-* Diwali *-*-*

Food food food! That's all I can say of this Diwali. Ate a lot!
Please note :  all mouth watering dishes eaten at one meal never count. Its so unfair! You cannot decide which one you should invest more on :P

Diwali night was fun.Feeded my bro's  mind [ 5.5 yrs old ] with all the pollution and 'you are destroying our planet' lecture. He wanted to give up firing crackers! He was so moved :P
" I won't fire crackers on Diwali "
Then whats the point if you plan to fire them later ? :S
" No on diwali..the entire world must be firing crackers nooo! So I won't add to the pollution. I'll fire crackers the next day. "
Very smart , lol :)
The tactic kinda worked though.He doesn't want to buy too many crackers next year :D

I'm not much into crackers myself. Not that I'm scared. I'm just not into it. And yeah the amount of pollution a handful of crackers can bring about - is definitely a turn off.
This year however a lot of crackers were burnt in my colony unlike last year.Made up for the 'festival' feel. Then lots of sweets!! And also lot of neighbours came down to wish unlike before.I didn't step into the house of single one though. There were too many things that kept me occupied. Plus , I don't even have to mention how much fun my cousins are to be with =)

Summing up : enjoyable! Time flied ~~~~~~ which it does , when you are having a good time!

Saturday, October 30, 2010

I want to be deaf for a while.

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There are days like these when everything seems so screwed up from a distance and worse even after a closer look.

All this after yelling your lungs out trying to keep a class of 15 kids silent & make them listen to you!

Eating a hot cheese toast.
Soft drink.
Ride back home.
Cuppa tea.Not my cup of tea - I don't like ginger tea! :O

Then what all with the Diwali cleaning.Lot of noise. Lot of clutter.

Can't the world go silent for a while ?

I need a pause.

Forgive, O Lord, my little jokes on Thee,
And I'll forgive Thy great big one on me.
~Robert Frost, "Cluster of Faith,"

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Slap a twilight fan :D

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Facebook :  Lots of folks are celebrating an event 'Slap a twilight fan day'
lol :D

Its quite interesting to note the number of twilight haters! In fact most of them are guys.

I finally finished reading the whole series with Breaking Dawn being the last part.
Its the longest novel I've read till date ( around 800 pages )
I'm not much of a fan and then I don't abhor it either. Reading the twilight series was fun and occasionally irksome too...which is why I never read the entire series in one go.I read the four parts over a span of an year :P

I love the writing style of the author. The flow is contagious.

And that's all for now... some book-bashing later.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Through Pictures :)

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I have been going through my pictures clicked in last 5 years. It embarrasses , makes me smile , laugh , upsets or just makes my day! Thanks to pictures..its easier to understand how much I have changed & improved. Although I look different in many of the pictures due to the angles at which they were taken - I'm happy to see my recent avatar :D I do not frown over my pictures as much as I used to.
I may not LIKE all of my pictures..some come out real weird..but it helps in detecting where I've gone wrong - what with my hairstyle or what I've worn!



Pictures provide a great platform to keep a check on hairstyles! And I've styled experimented with my hair differently in last 2-3 years. The fact is I started ironing my hair after I saw how a bad hairdo made me look entirely bad :|
Then I cut my hair short last year without knowing HOW short I had cut them! But even then my look was decent enough.It turned out to be a really good haircut.And just a couple of months back..I cut my hair even shorter!! which is one big mistake I have made. Because not just short..my hair was cut a little oddly ..making 'me' look entirely different when I keep them untied! Huh  I miss my previous haircut.I wonder how I'd ever explain any hairdresser to cut it that way again.

As goes my dressing sense..definite improvement!! My Indian wear collection to date is by far the best I've had.[ with sundry compliments :D ]  casual wear - needs to be shaken upside down.
I feel sick when I see my old snaps. Like how and why did I even wear THAT ? But then..I had nobody to sort that out for me. And even today..I do not have an expert help! So its through pics that I'm trying to decipher what really suits me. An outfit may be good individually but it may not necessarily look good on me.I've always worn loose comfortable clothes. I can still learn to wear stylish clothes without looking like a joker :P

Its easy to certify your look staring into the mirror , however , it may not just be the right thing.
So thank you camera! And thank you snaps! And the shutterbugs who clicked them!

Did I mention I'm not that obsessed with looks nowadays ?? I guess its partly because of the comparison I've been doing between my old & new clicks.

Two things I know for sure now -
I should get  hair smoothening done! It'll save a lot of my time and energy :D
I must must must hit the gym again.


Snaps : Two of my favorites clicked 2 years back.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Lemme blurt out.Honest Honest.

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I lost my cell during navratri. Panic attacks for about half an hour & then some fellow who found it , returned it to me.It was almost 2 in the morning. 3 missed calls from mom. And my heart fluttered again :O  I had to gear up  for some major scoldings. Thankfully I didn't have to deal with it.

However , more than being thankful to that man who found my cell..I wanted to swear at him - for not responding to the calls I made. He picked up the phone some 10 times but never said a single word.That freaked me out real bad. I loose my mind when I panic. I just can't 'think'. I can't make a decision.My friend insisted me a couple of times to go to the stage & make an announcement but I wasn't willing to do that.
I was just waiting for my cell to walk back to me.

 Dancing while carrying your cell/purse is no fun.Its been an unexciting raas garba this time.I'm just not hyper. Maybe too indifferent for anything.

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 For more than one reason..I feel like my life is a big joke played upon me.Or the way it has been crafted. All those great words of wisdom about not regretting things & letting them go do not really apply - in the long run.
I could trade all my gadgets ( my highest possession till date) for  a chance to go 5 yrs back in my life & change the entire course of my life. Its never too late , I know. But 5 yrs is a big time & it will take a lot to compensate for the lost time.

There are several things scattered at the back of my mind.Its difficult to piece them together & make sense.Its easier not to ponder over such things. But until when ?? Time is flying & I haven't moved an inch.

I really hate it when someone starts preaching me. Thanks for all the concern but mind your own business! Advices given when never asked for are not required at all! Help all you want..just DON'T PREACH!

Umm I'm almost at the same stage I was in last year. Not much has changed. Only that..I'm not severely upset.But then I'm not euphoric either. Screw it. Who cares.

I like being indifferent.All this time I was trying not to be too emo.It never worked. And then I learned to be indifferent - and voila! It works :)

Monday, October 11, 2010

A Gathering Light.

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Another book to hit as my favorite - A Gathering Light. ( Jennifer )

 I won't review it because I just can't do enough justice! The way I explained it to one of my friends - she wouldn't read it EVER.So I'd better save others :D

However ...I'd say its the BEST I've read in recent times. The kind of novel that  feels so real..so close to you , that you start living with the characters. For their sorrow , happiness et al.

Mattie Gokey , a girl in her early teens finds the huge responsibility of taking care of her younger siblings as a promise she'd made to her dying mother.
At the cost of her dreams. To become a writer.
A drunk non-supportive father , lesser money & too many mouths to feed only adds to her woes.And then all it comes down to is her ambitions. It keeps flipping between the two until she makes her decision.
Its about choices , friendships , responsibility , family , love  , passion & the big question - What you want for yourself ?  And whether you've made the right decision ?
Anybody whose family's proving to be a huge obstruction in achieving his/her dreams will relate A LOT with the protagonist. I loved the way she found her answer which is a parallel story linking hers.  A girl named Grace Brown dies under mysterious circumstances in a lake near a hotel where Mattie works.And a day before her death - Grace gives her letters to Mattie requesting her to burn them.But Mattie keeps them & figures that Grace has been killed. Through her letters  Mattie connects & finds inspiration which helps her way out.

You can so find a part of yourself in her.Almost everyone goes through choice making.Its tough. And it all comes down to YOU. Good or bad.Fears.Love.Family. Lastly - The final call.

The writing style is different & refreshing - going in flashbacks & present - to cross at a point.I also liked how the 'chapters' or parts have been distinguished ..not with another subtitle but 'word of the day' which Mattie learns & eventually finds something in her life to give her the best example for usage of that word.
The murder is based on a true story.The author was touched by the letters & wanted something good to happen out of them.Which is why it has been linked to Mattie's story.
 All in all - A gathering light makes for a delightful read.Its as if the book title speaks for itself :)
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I can now draw a common element between three of my fav novels.
To kill a mockingbird.
The Kite runner.
A Gathering Light.

All three novels have a kid/teenager telling their story in their words.Learning the world around them as they are growing. Going through the bitterness of life. And their stories not necessarily ending with a happily ever-after...but with lots of hope , smile & wisdom.

The way real life is.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

old bubble bursts : random.

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I don't know what I'm looking for  - yet  I'm searching IT endlessly.
> And making others search too which is freaking them out.

The day you give up expectations - is the day  you get results for your ex-expectation.
> Back to square one : expectations!!

There's a high probability of causing damage to things that you are obsessive & possessive about.
> I have no idea if it applies to relationships too.
In the best of my relations..I never felt the need to be over obsessive.
And that's how those have remained the 'best'.
The more you fear for your things..the more the chances of losing them.

Riding on a pillion is always scary.
> I might ride my two wheeler crazily , hit a cyclist or break signals.
But if I'm the pillion - I will screech even if a prospective-hit-victim is 10 m away.

Credits are not overrated. 
> If you've done something  good & significant - you've gotta get recognized , thanked & appreciated.

The worst feeling on earth is to not feel great about yourself.
> Terrible.

The best - is to feel simply superb about yourself.
> And it won't happen just like that.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Tomorrow

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I came across this short film which won first prize at the Pepsi short film competition 2010.
To think of it - just a one min film & what a cool concept! :D

Monday, September 27, 2010

"We're the blackberry boys"

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We wear cool suits
We wear shiny shoes.
We're the blackberry boys.
We're special we're clever
We're very very special.
We're the blackberry boys.

We do chat
And we do mail
We do surf
We do all on the move.
Cos we're the blackberry boys
Oh yeah. We're the blackberry boys!


:D  I love this Vodafone ad! ( bb prepaid )
 Looks like the trend of creating snazzy ads for the various services provided by telecom service providers is catching up a lot recently. And this ad just hits right on! Perfect. :D

Oh and I'm not the blackberry girl!
I bought Nokia x6 instead of bb curve. Not regretting much. Nokia loyalist. Can't help it.

Monday, September 13, 2010

'Heavy' weekend.

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We folks work upon a different calender. Our Rakshabandhan is always celebrated a day after Ganesh Chaturthi. So we happened to bask in the celebration  for the second time ( had already conducted the ceremony during the mathura trip )

It was an awesome weekend I've had .. we all have had.
Ate like a glutton .Felt like my stomach would explode about at any moment!
So it started off Friday night when we all went for the movie Dabang with my family. Got to spend more time with bhabhi! ( bhaiya got married just about 2 months back & came down hometown only now after the wedding )

Saturday we sisters got our much due party from my 2nd elder brother! He switched his job from the Bank to Reliance obviously getting a higher package! So we were not going to let it go just like that.We were hellbent on not doing away with his excuses. And finally..we got our dinner treat!

Went to Ten Downing Street & had mouth watering pasta along with the dinner.
Since all our pestering was for dinner treat along with cad-b , my bro wouldn't let it go away either.So despite the heavy dinner..and all of us already nagging about the fact that we won't able to eat anything more - we were taken to cad-b for the chocolate milkshake!! I mean at this point I would have ideally puked but then it was chocolate & no matter what - 'I' always have sufficient space & appetite for chocolate ice cream / milkshake.Had cad -b.And it was yum! I felt like I must have put on half a kg by then.
I wonder what it was like with my younger sister whom I often call 'Sugar Free' because she abhors eating sweets , ice reams etc! lol Poor her :P

Sunday was the day to get richer :P And maybe for that matter - even healthier! ( not the fit healthy..the fat healthy ) Ate a lot again.. lunch with special marwari dishes that are heavy enough to be equivalent to eating food for 2 days! But that was just the main course. Sweets are an indispensable part of any fest - whether you happen to be into the category of my sugar free sister or the rest of us :P And so it began. With rasgulla and laddu! This is the first time I didn't quite enjoy sweets. Too much of sweet just leaves you sour :O  And again , I must mention I feel bad for my sugar free sis :P  She was so badly forced to eat the laddu :D lol

Coming to the part where we got richer...my bro & bhabhi gifted us snazzy tees.It didn't fit me.I knew it wouldn't.Not after all that food & sweets we had in 2 days. ( Ok how lame..it didn't fit me because I'm on the healthier side since like a couple of months :P )
My other cousin brothers gave us money. And my younger bro has promised to gift me a Blackberry phone. And if I tell anyone that I already have plans not to get it - all of them are going to kill me! Its been like 2 months I'm trying to figure out which cell to buy. My Nokia has already gone through what I call "plastic surgery" because I've had to use ticso tapes to put the backside cover firm.Currently even the keypad is paralyzed. And yet I wouldn't buy a cell phone because I'm CONFUSED.

I wonder if I'll ever decide what to get .I'm in so much dilemma that I prefer my old distraught battered cell which is lame. Avadh remarked that I wasn't getting married to think so much :P lol
I've been pointing out at least one flaw with each & every option I've been given so far. What to do..there's no prefect phone out there ! And if there is one - its out of my budget , by default!
Ok before any of them rushes out to kill me..I'd better just go & get something!
Hopefully. Wish me luck!

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Da Bang.

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Riot of a movie! No story line...even if there is one..you just wait for it to take off somewhere but it doesn't - and yet it perfectly manages to  entertain.
Thriving upon its ridiculous dialogues and Star power.. i.e Salman Khan..the movie comes as a fresh breeze after a couple of dull weeks at the box office.
Awesome music.
And an awesome Khan.
Salman is unarguably one of the most handsome actor in Bollywood.
And his charm comes oozing out in this movie.
Spontaneous & dashing - he steals the show!
He is the sole reason why one should go watch this movie.

Nothing intellectual to expect out of this movie..no melodrama either ..pure entertainment!

Nonsense that makes you giggle :D

I'm not much into these kind of movies..but somehow am glad I saw this one!
Salman is back with a Bang! DaBangg ;)

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Monday, August 23, 2010

Parikrama.

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Made a pilgrim trip which now seems like an yearly affair . This time I went to Mathura Vrindavan - The birthplace of Lord Krishna , also known for a lot of other famous related tales.

We gave a 21 km Parikrama around the 'Govardhan Parvat' / hill - barefeet in 8 hrs. I don't know the significance of this Parikrama and nobody had the answer when I asked for it. The parvat or hill was lifted by Lord Krishna to protect  brijvasi ( people of Mathura ) from sloshing rains.


We saw people doing the Parikrama by completely bowing down on the road - one of them bowing down 108 times at one place!! So our barefeet parikrama didn't seem like much of a deal except when the last 5 kms got really painful with every muscle in the leg crying for rest. But we made it.Like a thousand others.

There were more than a hundred thousand or maybe 1 crore people [ don't remem the figure] who gave Parikrama in the last week. I always wonder about the religious beliefs. Nobody asks WHY ? Everyone just makes a move.And so did I.

Despite my unanswered questions - I gave the parikrama with full faith.
There wasn't anything electric or divine about this place unlike how usually pilgrim places make you feel.The roads were littered with garbage & cow dung. And yes , we walked through all of that. After our first one or two km of walk , we were immune to the cowdung and the dirty roads.

Its an annoying and disturbing fact that a pilgrim place like Mathura which is given so much importance and  has such a strong religious association - isn't taken care of the way it should be. Dunno why the UP Government is sleeping! With a swarm of devotees visiting Mathura Vrindavan every year , something should have been done ; atleast by now! 2010!!. The complete infrastructure is a mess. Its not about making an 'easy' parikrama route , its about keeping the sanctity of that place in its right form.

> We gave the Parikrama the second day. The first day we went to Vrindavan to visit temples. The ISKCON temple was absolutely beautiful and ELECTRIC - that spark of spirituality and closeness to divinity that I was longing for.Stunning.
Saw a couple of foreigners singing bhajans and dancing in their own world.


> The third day we visited Neemgav. Now this place definitely stirred me inside out.I always thought my roots are from Rajasthan.But we basically  hail from the 'Neembarak Sampradaya' or clan which is Five thousand years old. My forefathers had lived in Rajasthan.We have some people out there keeping a record of our family chain which is how we are aware of the names & place of birth of our last 9 or 10 forefathers!
So we still come from Rajasthan but we BELONG to Mathura - that's what I concluded.

 Lord 'Neembarak' is an avatar of Lord Vishnu after whom the place got its name - Neemgav.
 We also visited the spot where 'Lord Neembarak ' supposedly  meditated for years.

The Neem tree under which he meditated is said to be 5000 years old. I had a funny stupid yet sensible thought that maybe they should conduct carbon dating on the tree to truly know if the tree is 5000 yrs old :|


Evening was reserved for a trip to AGRA to visit the Taj mahal - a monument I have been dying to see.I'm NOT exaggerating. I badly wanted to see it. All my other cousins were quite indifferent to the idea of going Agra - one because it would have been a total of 5 hrs of car run ( and all of us were already quite tired ) & secondly because nobody was so particularly interested in seeing Taj Mahal - at least not as much as I was!
The other option they had was to visit more temples. It was but natural they chose Agra :P
BUT we got stuck in major traffic on half our way. It was 4.30 and we had 55 kms more to go. The driver suggested not to go any further as the gate closes down by 5.30. We still feel he made us a fool and that we could have made it to the Taj Mahal :((
---  And since I was the MOST excited one to see Taj ..my cousins constantly teased me as the plan went kaput!!  It was funny - the way they teased me.

I gave one short statement - that the world will conspire to make my wish come true :P lol Ok this one was a bit too much ..so I promised that I will specially visit Agra sometime to see the Taj :)) to which they gave invisible pats and inaudible applaud :D


Fooled that we were - we had to deviate our way to a nearby temple and this place called 'Akshay Patra' . Ok now this was one GOOD thing to see . Its a kind of a factory where about 40,000 chapatis are made in ONE hour by machines - right from the kneading of the flour. A complete meal is prepared  by the machines and this mid-day meal is served to school going kids.Its very well controlled and organized.Sophisticated.And obviously a non-profit initiative. Awesome , ain't it ??
The temple right next to this was that of ISKCON again. And the Darshan we had here were the MOST beautiful I've ever had in my life. It was DIVINE. The idol of Radha Krishna was decorated in a way as to make it look like they are dancing.


> The fourth & last day we flocked to the Ghaat of Yamuna river - the 'vishram sthal' [ = relaxtion place ] of Lord Krishna.We were at the ghaat in Mathura. Right across the river is Gokul - the place where Krishna was raised by Yashoda - and this path across the river was crossed by Krishna's father to save him from being killed by Kans.
[ I know I know I'm giving extra information but I feel its necessary to mention since I revised a lot of things  about the epic tale during this trip ]



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We boarded our train in the evening.
Coming to the more significant details - I had LOT of fun with my family & cousins! We were altogether a bunch of 26 people. I'm very happy to have made this trip. During our train journey to Mathura : 18 of us sang bhajans together for about an hour.( Thankfully nobody in the train complained!!)

I wish somebody takes the initiative to make Mathura a cleaner neater and beautiful place.
And I wish my wish to see Taj is fulfilled soon. Quite strangely I wasn't turned off that we couldn't make it to Agra. I have become indifferent to my unfulfilled exciting wishes :|


I loved spending time with my cousins. They were fantastically funny & fun as always :D
We played cards which  seems like an established compulsory  ritual at all our outings.
Mathura will remain one my most memorable journey.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Just be there.

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I am one of the most short tempered person I know of !
My sisters - who happen to be my most favorite people on earth - are way opposite to me.

I've never seen any of them whine , crib or cry .I've never seen them turn pesky over little things.They get along with whatever there is , with whoever there is to deal with.
And they always manage to have that big smile on their face.

It made me really think about myself. Why can't I learn to be calm  ?
Am pretty sure I'll live a 'smiling life' myself if I adopt their qualities.

The good part is that - they adjust with what I am.They have always been extremely supportive and one of the reasons for a smile on my face :)
I'm able to express my opinion to them without any inhibitions , without any fear.
They NEVER judge me.And that's what makes everything much more simpler.
I love them. And I want us to have that same relation and rapport that we share for the rest of our lives.
We are more like friends , after all.

I'm closer to them than mom.

In fact , I do not remember the last time I hugged mom or the last time mom hugged me.

Whereas ,  we just hugged last week.
Tugs my heart. Thanks for being there.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Shoot

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Of all the mind-torture & bitch of emotions that one can go through...
the worst is -




 CREATIVE  BLOCK !!


The desperate anxiety to crack upon a good idea if not a brilliant one , the restlessness caused due to the lack of an idea...the helplessness to create something dexterous , trailblazing & all that jazz ; resulting from an absurd 'block' turns into an absolute mind catastrophe.

The only remedy is when you DO happen to create/innovate something snazzy & original ON time.

But until then...its Royal Ego Embarrassment.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Inception Concluded.

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Inception was like a riddle..a puzzle to solve.Although I had my own interpretation for the movie..what left me a little irked was that every other person with whom I discussed the movie - had an entirely different interpretation.
I had given up on it until one my friends texted me telling me her take on it which is the MOST bizzare conclusion I've heard/read.
Radz : The movie ended with Mel's dream.She was controlling all the dreams.The kids were not real.They were just Cobb's projection.

Ok. Weird , aint it ?? I mean the director must be MAD to have written the story from this point of view .Mel was dead and gone.If there was anything that was to be answered - it was whether Cobb was dreaming in the end or not ?

The problem is..Radz' interpretaion left me with more questions and doubts , even when it made no sense..So I went to see the movie AGAIN.
And despite watching the movie for the second time..I couldn't decipher the confusion!! ( which annoys me even more )

I happened to read several forums and sites that discussed the movie and analyzed it.And finally I reached to my conclusion , which I texted to my friends and cuz who were as much intrigued by the movie as I was.

 Me : Bohot soch vichaar aur duniya bhar ke lekh padhne ke baad ...hum is natijey pe pahuche hai ki 
( Hold your breath)
.
.
.
.Inception has plot holes! :D The director didn't bother to make the rules of the dreamworld clear.The movie had few loopholes which fail to explain the basic concept. ( Aur jankari ke liye, Kripya mujhse sampark karein )   Giving my obsession a dead end now.PEACE.

My bro replied.

Awin : Director ka manana hai ki dharti par paaye jane wale vibhinna manushyon ke liye yadi ek movie banana hai toh woh yehi hai.Har manav alag end sochega...aur vichlit hota rahega. Is dauraan woh movie baar baar dekh ke apni vidambana door karega.Is tarah movie ka kosh rupiyon se bhar jayega! 
 LOL :D this one's really the best conclusion :P
And then my sister replied too.
P2 : Kya uttam vichaar prakat kiye hai is balak ne .( with ref to the above mentioned msg ) Aur director ke isi maayajal  ka shikaar tum ho chuki ho balike ( this was for me:P since I watched thre movie twice:P ). Ab apne in vicharo ko viram do...kyon ki apne dimag ka had se jyada upyog tumhare aur baaki janta ke hit mein nahi hai !

Haha :D  I agree with both of them! I've really invested a lot of time in cracking this movie.And it has been fun. I wanted to list down the loopholes as well but I guess its not required anymore as I've decided to wait for the next part if at all there'll be one :D

 Inception deciphered  : Make a wonderful movie ( script )
Misguide , dazzle , perplex  viewers as much as you can.
Mint money.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Inception

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Its been a looooong time since I've said that a movie I saw was 'amazing'.

I loved watching Inception.

Its stupendous!

Smart out-of-the-box script...complicated but sensible.

I plan to watch it again since I have few doubts ;)

And I strongly recommend everyone to watch it.

You MUST.

Monday, July 19, 2010

Doesn't feel right.

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You know what ?

In this section of my life story...What bothers me isn't that  
things have changed.

Its that..things are not the same!

If you can't forget some things in life..make sure you don't give yourself time to remember them
The wind is blowing in another direction.
You took a train to the wrong destination.
What begins thus is a delirious deception.
Its tragic , there can be no alteration.


Pic : http://www.flickr.com/photos/photocillin/3701137872/

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

I am...

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I'm the tsunami that never came
the silence that never breaks


the frame in sepia that wishes a rainbow change
the tip of the iceberg that fell


the glass that shatters in splinters every day 
the tear that never trickles down the tiny face


the wanderer who lost her way
the night that waits for day

the secret that chooses to remain numb
the blond that wasn’t always dumb

the health that turned pale
the prisoner that ran out of jail

the uncertainty that reassures itself
the irony that contradicts something else

the assassin that stabbed the soul
the thinker that murdered her goal

am the phoenix that shall rise again
the moment that wont bargain any gain.

**Wrote when I was feeling low.Definitely not my current state of mind :)

Monday, July 12, 2010

Can't bottle it up...

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Getting back to old routine is tough after spending an amazing time that stretched over for two weeks.
To contain all the excitement is even more tough...because it all got over within minutes.And now it all feels like a long long dream.
So yet again..there isn't much that remains for me to jot down.
And even as am angry that I'm unable to convert sundry photographic moments into words , what bothers me more is that - Old life is going to bite me crazy. :x

Summarizing the last few days : I've had a BLAST - dancing , eating , laughing , traveling , and putting on some of my best glad rags.

Its been a roller of a fortnight.None of us aware of time or week day ..and all of us soaked in crazy celebration ;)

It was the best wedding I've attended so far.And the best of best time I've had with all of my family.
A special mention : Sumptuous lip smacking tongue crackling  food.

We put in a lot of effort in making our Sangeet a success and thankfully it paid off ;)

Its indescribable..of how much I have enjoyed.
Letting the tiredness wear off.
Will be back with a bang.

Monday, June 21, 2010

What's the Hurry , Dude ??

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I have something to say to the tech guys.

Why do you have to be so quick in evolving better gadgets every single day ?

Its like..here I'll buy a cell phone & in next 15 days there will be a better one available for which I could get a bang for my buck but I cannot because I already the bought the one that's not-so-cool-anymore.

It goes for any thing apart from cell too.TV , digicam , PS2 - any goddamn gadget.

Why can't you let the buyer enjoy the product for some time that he/she has bought  ?

It feels horrible to spend on something the UTILITY ( talk of economics ) of which is not derived since there's a better product launched in the market in that particular phase.

What's the hurry ..you techiie guys ??!

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Where the heck is the ACE.

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We were playing a game of cards.
And I lost all the sets of the game.
It sucks :O

Sometimes how important it becomes to win a f***ing game of cards.

Perpetual wins from the opposite team just makes everything worse.

I was almost on the verge of crying :|

f**k my luck.

--I swear A  LOT these days.

Last week I had fallen flat on my face after getting unconscious.Total switch off.
What happened next :
I was given water and glucose , made to sit in the car and asked to relax [ like a 100 times ]
But among all the things..I was concerned about something else.
So even when I had no idea as to how and why things happened..I frantically said "woh nariyaal pani waale ke paise dene hai!" 

"Haan 
haan
haaan!!
de diye..tu tension mat le" - chorus reply! :D

Sunday, June 13, 2010

When I am hyper...

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Things don't always go RIGHT.

A] Hyper + being freaking mad = BAD idea.

B] Riding a bike in scorching sun = Superbad idea.

C] Getting a NEW "stylish" haircut = DUMB idea.

D] Fainting ; simultaneously  puking out  frappe  = GROSS

A + B + C + D
Is
Equal
To

Feeling like a f***ing moron.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Innovative words they find

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We had a GD session in class.The topic given was "Will banning Fashion shows and New year parties save our culture"
I don't think anyone made much sense or even intended to.I chose to remain silent for the most of it.
There's this aggressive guy in our class who blabbers at every opportunity that he gets.He actually went onto discuss Kamsutra :O after someone pointed out the negatives of having fashion shows.

At another time..during another GD  when the topic was Love marraige VS Arranged marriage..
Each one in the class said something rediculous.
For instance someone said something on the lines of 'Dry Love'  :O to which our sir said 'Boy you really need to clear out your concepts' lol
As it is evident..the discussion went totally off track.

Am studying with a one-of-a-kind bunch of nerds :|

Now onto some current movies.
Rajneeti : A pacy entertaining movie but nothing of a masterpiece.Jealousy , betrayals , elections , murders..it had everything a political movie should have.And as the general opinion goes..its a mixture of both the Mahabharata and The Godfather.
Rajneeti is a good package , makes sense but it didn't have the kind of magic you expect out of a rip off from two epic tales.
 The cast is apt.Acting wise each of them have fared well.Katrina mumbles in her speech scene.No punctuation :|
Great sets.Loved the house :P
3.5/5

Prince of Persia : This isn't a superhero movie.Don't expect much action.But for once , am glad that the action scenes didn't go overboard otherwise it becomes a bit difficult to absorb.The movie has sufficient and well crafted action stunts.Interesting story.Good music score.
The cast could have been better.I started liking the protagonist only after half the movie.
3.5/5

Monday, June 7, 2010

I'll probably know all the ceremonies by heart

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 My brother ( first cousin ) got engaged! Everyone's extremely happy :) We all have been excitingly looking forward for his marriage since he is the eldest in our generation.
The wedding's only a month away.We all are busy deciding songs & theme for the Sangeet and desperately finding a good choreographer.

Yesterday I went over to my sisters' place to finalize all of these things.Instead we ended up putting on random songs and danced like maniacs (monkeys).Hopping , laughing , teasing - we happened to keep a dance competetion & made the younger sister - the judge.I won the monkey dancing competetion :P

Another cousin of mine from maternal family got engaged today!! And I might attend her wedding if I don't have any of my exams clashing.Actually I really do wish to go for her wedding whenever it'll be.Its a nice excuse to spend super fun time with cousins :D

Oh and did I mention that this relative of mine..who basically belongs to my grand mom's family is going to get married in November :P His wedding would be in Jaipur and I want to go there as well :D I have met the one who's getting married...so its not like I would end up attending weddings just for the heck of it :P
My grand mom's family is huge.I haven't met half of them and haven't seen the other half since ages.It would be nice to get to know all.

Wow.Its going to be a full on wedding year.My plate's full :)

We marwaris have a number of functions and ceremonies.
I think by the end of the year I'll be well versed with each of those :P

Saturday, June 5, 2010

The Brand Bug

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I'm not a brand freak.I believe in buying things of worth.And having said that , I enjoy donning brands just as much ;)


Recently I have come across a lot of people who worship brands.Who can never do without brands and the kind who think you cannot make friends unless you wear brands!

The point is that you don't need to buy something just because it is branded.Clothes and accessories are picked out because you like them ; would like to wear them - not selected over because they belong to so-so brand which would cost an arm and a leg.

I've seen several branded clothes that you wouldn't believe belong to that very label.
As long as something looks really stunning on you..it doesn't matter if you are wearing a brand or not.

Brands may guarantee the quality. But is it always worth the price ??
Or are you simply paying half the sum to the logo ? ;)

To each his own.I'm just amused how much the brand bug latches upon young minds...when their friendships depends on the label of their clothes.Sick.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Things have changed...

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Because we all have grown up.

The last time I had spent such a vacation with these bunch of funny idiots was when brat , Nik and Ankit were of my height.Now all three of them are at least 5 feet 8 inch tall.And I'm still 5'1 :|
That's the most basic difference with which I can relate to the two phases.

A lot of things have changed during these few years.I'm having trouble absorbing it.
To begin with  - Bubble is married.It still hasn't sunk in.

The wedding was superb but the food wasn't.That minimizes the length of this post as I cannot stick to the description of one of the most important elements of wedding ( the food - in case you don't get it ).I feel bad that I couldn't come online and write to my heart's content about the  excitement and mention the scandalous episodes.As of now , most of it has evaporated from my head.So , I'm not left with much to talk about , which is really sad :(

What is worth mentioning is the DJ party we had two nights before the marriage.It was the most awesome dj night I've had.Amazing tracks played over not making us stand still even for a second.
 I absolutely loved the way Brat danced! :)
The guys in our family were hitting on the girls from the groom's side :D Its funny given that few of them are already dating. ;)

My stomach dropped during the vidaai ceremony.I didn't cry because I was groggy and also because this particular ritual never makes sense to me.But to be there when every else is crying and the bride is so red-eyed...kind of makes you feel sick.

After the wedding , I extended my stay for more than a week.
We had in- house parties..which was crazy.
We went go carting after ages.
I went shopping -  after ages.
Worth mentioning - the Oreo shake at mochas.Its one of the best things of my trip.
We had silly discussions on nonsense topics which were hilarious.
The guys danced like maniacs.
It seems I wore the best sari.Got compliments for my outfit from EVERY ONE.I'm not exaggerating.
got a tan :( went swimming in scorching sun at uncle's farmhouse just 2 days before the wedding.The tan spoiled my mood for the rest of the days.I hate the pictures.Mine.

Away from the may madness...I spent a supercool time with my maternal family.
When everyone left , I cried.Felt like a fool for doing the same because nobody else was crying :|
That's exactly how sentimental  I am despite strongly resisting any display of my vulnerable side.

I had wished to scribble about all those things that have changed amongst us only to get it all out of my system but I'm already over it.I didn't even think much about it.That's majorly because I didn't have the time to think.I managed to live each moment instead of interpreting and analyzing.

Bitter sweet juggle of emotions.
Folds of difference.
Varied opinions.
Things may have changed.
The magic remains.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Awesome things

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Glad to have stumbled upon this page - 1000awesomethings

Am picking up my most favorites from the list.
  1. Dancing when you’re home alone
  2. When you learn a new word and then suddenly start seeing it everywhere
  3. The night before a really big day
  4. When you open a book to the exact page you were looking for
  5. That separate compartment in your stomach for dessert 
  6. When you’re in the fastest moving lane in a traffic jam
  7. Letting the waves bury your feet at the beach 
  8. Getting to the light at the end of the tunnel
  9.  Realizing you still remember your childhood friend’s phone number
  10. That one person who laughs when you tell a really bad joke 
  11. Eating the ice cream stuck to the lid of the carton
  12. Figuring out the plot twist just before they reveal it 
  13. Swapping driver’s licenses with a friend and laughing at each other’s photos
  14. Setting the new high score on a video game
  15. Walking on grass with bare feet 
  16. The feeling of brushing your teeth with a new toothbrush
  17. When the person at the store tells you the thing you’re about to buy is going on sale tomorrow 
  18. When it feels like the lyrics to the song you’re listening to were written just for you
  19. Finding something you lost a long time ago after you already gave up looking for it
  20. When batteries are included
  21. When the phone rings and it’s someone you were just thinking about 
  22. Using any item within reach to help grab the remote control so you don’t have to move
  23. When someone compliments your new haircut 
  24. When you get to your seat just as the previews are starting
  25. When you meet up with a group of friends and they stop talking to celebrate your arrival 
  26. Placing the last piece of the puzzle
  27. That feeling in your stomach when you go really high on the swings
  28. Popping Bubble Wrap
  29. Slurping hot soup on a cold night 
  30. When you arrive at your destination just as a great song ends on the radio
  31. Nailing that perfect move in a board game.
The list on the site is half way through.I've picked only a handful out of it and specially the ones that I found pecuilarly interesting + the kind I haven't read before.
Awesome , ain't it ? ;)

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Its like Rain on your wedding day

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The word 'Irony' was being discussed in our class , when my friend couldn't resist scribbling few lines from the song 'Ironic'.
And
I couldn't resist checking out the complete lyrics.
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An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...don't you think
A little too ironic...and, yeah, I really do think...

it's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures


Saturday, April 24, 2010

Vendetta

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I have this weird mindset attached to being at some places.
Like the kind I would never want to visit , again.The weird part is that my first trip at those particular places wasn't bad at all.And am unable to figure out why I wouldn't want to be there :|

Just for example..today I've been thinking of Blore which I'd last visited 5 years back.
I had spent a wonderful time out there..visited pubs..shopping et al.
And today..on this dull Saturday while am just mentally re-visiting my travelogue ..I cannot quite adjust to being present in blore in future.It gives me eerie feelings.Don't know what it is..maybe the culture out there...the atmosphere..or something mysterious associated with my memory that am unable to tap.

I wish to break that 'feeling' by visting Blore soon!
I really hope I do or these weird set of thoughts are going to give me nightmares.


*** I read
A thousand Splendid Suns : highly disturbing and painful.The tragedy ..the irony , the pain endured by the protagonists is just too much to read.I can read The Kite Runner atleast 5 times in all my life..but am never going re-read A thousand Splendid Suns.Its a sad and a very UNFAIR tale.
The writing style of the author also differs from his previous novel.A different presentations altogether.

A walk to remember : I'm not hurt  is all I can say.Maybe having read tragic love stories earlier..this one couldn't bother me much.

The Godfather : My first ever read on Mafia.Engrossing tale of crime and family ( notice.. I didn't say criminal family.The Don is strangely respectful )
There was a lot of irrelevant detail given on account of the other characters which really wasn't necessary , since it didn't have much purpose towards the climax.Waste of pages :|

I've always had some interest in the structure and organization of Mafia.So I think I need to start digging for some info.
Vendetta.I like the word..not the meaning.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Numbly baffled

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* Two of my most 'worshiped' friendships have ceased to exist or so it seems.
Time and distance have swiped off the spark.The 'need' to be along.
Even as those two friends are somewhere out there.Somewhere far.

I'm fully aware and sure of the fact that its never going to be the same..and the worst part of it is that I'm not even going to make an effort.Maybe it is not that bad to not try.That comfort and rapport has just dissolved.Pointless.

* You think I'm a fool.You are absolutely right.FULL STOP.

* Some relations have to be kept the way 'elders' want you to , which is far less by your standards.Its difficult.I wish there were no rule like formalities.Happiness would have come simpler and it would still have been valued just as much.

* The sole purpose of my life is not to get married.Unlike the assumptions.There's so much to do..so much to LIVE for.Marraige thoughts give me a virtual nervous breakdown.

* Some people go Volt Face.With absolute ease.I don't know what to do about them.It baffles me all the time.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Practical solutions ??

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1] What do you do when you think someone doesn't deserve the attention from you because they don't hold you as much important , and despite knowing it you let them magnetize you & make you give them importance all the time which is pretty sick and stupid if you were to ask me.But anyway..what do you really do - to cut off ?? Should you ?

Guess its difficult to put ego aside when you genuinely care.No matter what you get in return.

I still need an answer. More than that..I need a way out of it.

2] Who decides what you deserve and how much you deserve ?
What if you do not have as much as you deserve ?
And what if someone has more than they ever deserve ?

Annoyingly unfair situation

Answers any ? 'SANS philosophy'

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Dang it!

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  • Its a bit strange that nobody picks up the phone when I badly want to talk to just anyone. And a lot of ppl call when I have a relatively occupied day.
  • All excited plans go kaput!
  • Some friends are unreachable even at normal hours.
  • Mom screamed loudly when I was driving as if I got someone under the car.It was SO embarrassing.
  • My exams were bad worse ever.Its a shame.
  • A day before an exam , there are considerable number of activities going online.Fb seems to have a lot to offer.Lot of blogs to read etc. The day after exam ( when I'm FREE ) - there's a lull.
  • I bought a stylish sari for myself  ( !!!!! ) and I'm not too sure if I'll be actually wearing it anytime soon.My second thoughts are a secret and mom shouldn't come to know about it. 
  • I still can't believe I went shopping to buy a sari.
  • I guess I've got bats in the belfry.I list it under what happens when you turn 20.My friends would say I've been 'forever crazy. twenty is just an excuse.'
Ufffff !

Friday, April 2, 2010

For the Love of...

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If languages could be eaten , I'd say English is my favorite cuisine.

I would gobble up all the words and would still be craving for more. Always hungry as I am.

Novels would be the junk food.Spicy & tangy! 

Classics would be like a bottle of Old wine. 

Poems would be like those special servings you try that  you may not always like. 

Idiom and phrases would make up for the dessert :D  Irresistible.


*** I swear I could have EATEN English language if I could.
I know it doesn't make sense but simply put - I turn restless if I do not use proper English.

Not just grammatically correct..I like to keep pace with a perky snazzy vocab.
 

And apart from that...I'm a great admirer of witty one liners.
Oh and how could I forget to mention how much I love to use phrases and idioms :D
I did something funny with those ,  using them in a post based on one of the personal events  -  Every Dog has its day!


There's something so silky about this language.
Actually its like wax..it moulds to the shape you give it --- quite smoothly.

Of course , I love to speak in Hindi just as much.
But for reading and writing..its English all the way!

This post is in fond dedication For the Love of language!
What would the earth be without my favorite cuisine ? :P


Monday, March 29, 2010

Counselling is a MUST.

11 Cuppa coffeee [comments ]
Rads : You know girls in my coll are so dumb.
Me : Why ? What happened ?
Rads : You know why their parents got them to do interior designing ?
Me : Why ?
Rads : Because they were good at drawing rangoli and heena

ROFL


Tragedy.

My mum too wanted me to do interior designing and I would have done it for the fun of combination & permutation of colors , furniture and creating superb ambiance ..not because I could draw heena :P
and I bet I would have been GOOD at it!

But then I knew it wasn't my calling.

I still don't know what is!

Double tragedy.

*** Peer pressure sucks.Can never get out of it!