Its funny how we sit together & discuss future.Rare but some of the most special moments.
Discuss future ? Don't we all do that ?
Its kinda different in my family ..actually quite strange & funny with my dad.
It makes me
nervous at times.It makes me want to fast fwd life the other times.
I wldn't
prefer to go into past.I miss my childhood but I still have fun like a
Kid.I watch cartoon with my younger sibling.I play along with him.I fight with him as if we are of same age.( Very immature here ) So my childhood & present is one & the same to me.
There's no rewind factor for me. Just forward. When things are clumsy & something nicer is approaching ..I wld just want to FWD time so that I grab the good things as early as I can.
A couple of weeks back ..we were discussing future.My dad wouldn't easily talk of it ..so when he does I make sure I make him spill all the beans.But he is reserved about many things.
One of the things he told me was that he sees a lot of expenditure in the near future.
So I was like..maybe its all of the left over furniture to be bought ? And maybe some of his work-related stuff ?
He repeated A LOT OF.
Oh so ?He smiled and said he doesn't have a wink of an idea
where the money is going to come from &
where it is going to be spent.
lol I was amused , as always.
We discussed few more things.I tried tactfully but couldn't make him reveal more future upcoming events.The atmosphere got a little sentimental.Suddenly we ended the conversation.I wish I could derive more.Because its not everyday my father talks of our
written future.My dad can predict.He can predict the unpredictable.And all we have to do is be prepared in our lives.
Nothing can be changed ..that being warned of.But he cannot ever reason as to
why something will happen &
How ? He just knows
WHAT will happen.
Its FUNNY.It absolutely leaves me dazed.I wonder how he keeps up with things when he can see future not being very good. Its must be tough being my dad. Sometimes I also wonder ...just how he is able to pull days neatly knowing trouble is around the corner.And for the most of it..I wonder why he doesn't help me with my career. I just need him to tell me once that whatever I've chosen to do is the rightest thing.
I guess it is the right one.But I'm falling weak Dad.
I wish he tells me what
I'm going to be.I mean ..after all when its all pre-decided with our destiny & all that higher level of philosophical jazz which I abs do not question as it is out of my range of understandings..it will be nice if I know what life has in store for me. So that I can
begin to be THAT
, begin to do what will eventually make me what I'm supposed to be.Weird ? Yeah , this one ain't funny. Am dead serious.
There's a part of me ...the one that I'm fond of calling the
Smart & Silent Believer who wants to make every living person on earth believe in destiny , luck & astrology.
Prove it to them.
There's this other part of me..who thinks she can avail of the most defining experiences in life only if her dad makes it possible for her which he can but is in no hurry.
For me - Its not
very important to Prove people how many amazing fantasy like things befall in and around our lives.
But if it can just strike for once...I'd like to taste the moment which I'm sure will be the most deliciously spicy dish I've ever had.
I never talk of my dad's talent to a lot of people.Not even with my closest friends.They never seen to be too keen to know.Or they never seem to understand what important , unbelievable & magical theory I'm sharing with 'em. If I sense that..I never speak of it again.But I've had enough of talking bout it to myself.
For I believe , if you know something
special ...let the world know it too.
Because not everybody here is
extraordinary.Really.
Don't have theories like those of the Old Egyptian Pharaohs who believed they will take Gold along with themselves after they die which is why their followers buried ornaments etc in their coffin.
Similarly Whatever it is here..enjoy it , spend it ( knowledge , money ) right here. Magical secrets need to be shared too , right here.
My belief in God has become stronger & much more
confusing ever since I know of my dad's incredible talent which few more people share.But his take on life is the
best I know for sure.
I've put a full stop on questioning God's existence.
Its not necessary to
debate that anymore.
We
see it only when we
believe it.
Title courtesy : The book by the same name.