No background story.

You drilled a hole in my heart

that still loves you back for no reason at all.

'coz no matter how many pieces my heart is into right now

there's still a part that vouches for you somehow.

'coz no matter how much pain you filled in

the fact that I loved and I always will - would remain

'coz no matter how pointless it may seem , no doubt

even after all the ire and hate tires itself out.

You leave me at such crossroads

goodbyes will not suffice.

I shall only walk away this time

bidding a farewell that wouldn't rhyme.


** A couple of rhyming lines do not make a poem. This ain't a poem.

A major query most of them had was if I had a breakup ?
Well..my query is why do you need a breakup to write 'a couple of dark rhyming lines' ?
Such questions spoil the essence.
This 'piece' is more like 'an elated feeling triggered by a sad stimulus' as put by a friend. :P
In simple words , I wrote coz I felt like writing it.
No background story.Not necessarily :)

Water splashing.

There was a time , say almost an year or two back when I used to dread festivals.
It would only mean being stuck up in home , and doing just  about nothing.
Physically present in a pretense of a happy environment.
 And yet mentally fighting with the loneliness.

Festivals are meant to be 'celebrated' together.

Not when one of your parents prefers watching the TV or say is least interested in forming a little social circle.

When another one of your parents is busy doing the household chores.And is upset to be holding onto the routine even on this day.

So what do you do ? Deck up and sit quietly. Or watch TV.
So much for the chores that you are not good at anyway.

I don't think that's anybody's idea of celebration or festival.

I don't feel you can celebrate alone.

So what's changed now ?

The relations with the extended family.  A little much to  do rather than just watching tv.

I wouldn't pretend I'm happy. But then I'm GLAD to be occupied , on festivals.

Else my heart would shrink the tiniest on knowing I'm the only one not 'celebrating'.

Lets also say..I've conditioned myself to be indifferent.
 I'm so saturated , it hardly matters to me.

I look forward to spend time with cousins. Laugh along..share old stories et al.

But deep deep deep inside my heart , I'm hurting every bit.

Holi was no different. Flower holi like last year :D
Singing bhajans.
And some 15 mins of water splashing.
Thats about it. Something's better than nothing. Thank god for that.
And well , yeah...that's it :)

Driving on highway

I just got wings. So I cannot stop from flying.

Doing crazy stuff. Drove 20 kms in the outskirts of the  city for a college function at night.

It was risky. My first drive on highway at night.
Did not tell at home.

"kamine' friends kept irritating all through the drive :
" yes ,  run over that guy.."
" are 2-3 ko toh aaj uda hi dena.."
" Oyee..mai apni mom ka ek lauta beta hoon..so please aaram se chala"
" Nammm...if you hit the truck , the truck will be pieces..apne ko kuch nahi hoga" :P

So even while my car and we all survived ...( it was quite hyped..I was driving good enough!)
this guy Z starts talking about flesh , blood and dunno what all :O

And he did not accompany us , the girls on our way back. Free food makes him 10 times more hungry :|

Had an amazing Dj party! Danced to my heart's content! :D :D
We never refrain ourselves from doing garba..even if the song played is 'chammak challo'

Seniors choreographed a fashion show on retro theme. Quite commendable.

And there was lavani too which was performed twice.

We too danced on 2 bollywood numbers with 1 hr of practice.
Maybe the saving grace was that we cancelled one of our dance sequence at the end moment on seeing all the other dance performances. :P

College doesn't suck when it arranges such parties :D
How I love to dance !!

Only expression : '!!!???!!!'

My biggest turn off isn't unpunctuality anymore.
Nor is it the weight issues. Those few extra pounds.
Not the monotonous 'hmmm' and 'hello'.

No

My biggest turn off is when I know I can screw the exam in the first glimpse that I catch of the paper , I know I can totally bang it..

and yet I take over wrong values.

Just that.

I know the answer isn't right. I know something somewhere is wrong.
I check again. And I STILL don't find my mistake.

Entire solution wrong.

Of all the turn offs ever..THIS is the MOST annoying.

Reverse effect.

Its like the question paper telling me ,  it screwed me.

Mario , I tired saving your princess ; giving up all my lives.

Its quite amazing how a video game that came into market about 20 years ago gives the same thrill of playing as it did a decade back in summers  !
 SUPER MARIO!!

I've been hooked to PS2 and Wii ..but there's something very unique about these old video games.
The sound effects..the levels...the tricks! They have their own novelty.
And the best part is despite so many years...you would enjoy playing it just as much.

Did you know you could increase the life upto more than 100 in 3-3 stage of mario ? :P
I didn't know that all these years :D

Then there's Islander , Circus , Pipeline , Tetris  etc and its so much fun!
 Specially if you're competing against the second player :P

Thanks to my kiddo brother..for reminiscing the good old indoor games.

Btw we even happened to play HIDE AND SEEK in college campus.
 All the non players were quite bewildered as to what exactly we were up to ! :D

One should never 'feel' old to play outdoor 'games'.
Its super refreshing.

Chuck it.

If what goes around , comes around...then whoever having the authority to make sure the chain revolves - is going to have a hard time deciding what to do of me.

Wasn't it a little too complex ?

I'm half guilty. For that matter  , I do not believe I did anything wrong even though it would appear so in books. In words. In facts. In statement.

It wasn't rational. It wasn't driven with an intention to deceive.
So I might as well be forgotten.

Or maybe I'm already facing the repercussions.
And frankly , dearest 'authority' ; whoever and wherever you are (  don't like to drag 'god' everywhere ) - I do not have the energy to offset it.

Kindly ignore me for a while and then maybe we could have a nice fight once I've restored all the vigor.

Let me be a little happy , yeah ?

Irrationally Yours
Overly emotional fool.

I too had a Valentine's day!

While there is contempt and in other cases mush regarding having to dedicate one special day out for love , parents , children etc etc..I personally feel such things don't hold any spunk . And I find it cheesy for those who celebrate. Specially Valentine's day.
I'm not one of those who goes by " Each day should be a valentine's day for your lover..."
Nor do I subscribe attaching importance to one particular day.

You love..you will love the same every single day. ( That is if you love. :P )
14th of feb shouldn't solely add any extra weightage to your love.

Having said that..I do not judge my friends who gift or receive gifts from their lovers specially chocolates on this very day.. ( partly because we are more than half the beneficiary of those chocolates :P ) ; to each their way of expressing love or whatever they think it is :|

So apart from taking custody of chocolates..there is the issue of handling bouquets too. Its obvious. You cannot con your parents into saying its a gift from 'friends'.
And it does kill to chuck a nicely decorated bouquet within a few hours from its receipt.
Therefore when my friend said she'll give away flowers to children..I suggested her to visit orphanage. And so we did.

Distributed chocolates and gave roses to some 20 kids in a orphanage near college.

Those kids immediately re-gifted the flowers to their caretaker :)

-- I've been on an over-doze of chocolates for 10 days now. And there's no aruging that chocolates do make you feel happy!
Also , I've observed , no matter which chocolate you eat ; those  home made or rochers or basically any of those expensive ones....at the end of the day a 10 bucks dairy milk beats them all :D