I drive diesel :P

I've let google hijack me with only one topic in last couple of hrs : the fuel price hike.

And have read several articles here and there about the opposition and of the justification.

On the onset the marginal hike is 'too much'. Certainly.

But given to the rupee drop..and the current account deficit - the price hike is justified!

I gave a presentation on the present scenario of Indian economy only two months back.
Had discussed with bro about the hows and whys of inflation while making the presentation , where I actually for the first time understood how it works - sans the bookish knowledge.

So my opinion  on the price hike was positive.

I'm not fully aware if there are other options which the government had.
And ofcourse...the government isn't a fool. They know what they are doing!

Yes it will impact the inflation which only managed to get a little better this year.
And we've gotto bear the brunt of it.

I confess I do not fully understand the cycle - in an analytical way covering all aspects.

-- but for now..I can smug.
I drive a diesel car :P

Into the coffin || No space left.

In my several furious uncanny attempts..

I tried destroying it. Burning it. Forgetting it.

It doesn't go away you know?

It comes back..with even more intensity.

I tried consoling. Convincing. Answering myself.

Questioning more.

Boomerang.

Everything always comes back , except what is really meant to be back. Except what I never threw away. Except what just went away.

The more I tried getting rid of it...the more it came..and the more it destroyed me.

Want it to abandon me.

Devastating.

Like someone stabbed - took away a part of my heart and  left me with with the other half , bleeding.

Bleeding more. Like it would never empty itself out.

I cry. Alone. Jokingly tell others I cried. And I laugh. Almost - alone.

 And then sometimes while I'm driving...I draw the locks of my hair behind my earlobes , turn up the volume , my hands on the steering wheel tapping with the beats - and I tell myself
Its fine. And its over.

Almost suddenly striked down by the fact..that it wasn't supposed to be this way. And I had it already sailed to float away.

 Wasn't that easy , was it ?

It is to be banned from any invitations my memories may yearn for.

There' no space left.

Don't stab it , again.

Things change.

Things don't remain the same.

Sounding synonymous. Meaning different.

Its been an year. Lets just give it , its funeral.

Not tossing aside this time.

Simply cosigning it to the grave.

My heart won't bleed again.

Summer Jam.

 - We spend 100 bucks like peanuts.
But when it comes to a text message that would deduct one rupee out of the leftover balance -
 drastic CHANGE IN MENTALITY.

You'd rather not 'waste' that one rupee :D

- Anger management therapy.
 My personal remedy : just sleep over! 
By the time you wake up , chances are you wouldn't even remember what were you so cranky about.

-  Retail therapy works only if you FIND good clothes.
It can have an opposite effect otherwise.

- One of the fast catching lines in college :  
"Tu kahe toh jaan bhi de du..bas mangiyo mat :D"

- I'm mad with my soul sister because she is shifting to the other end of the city.Not that I've met her in past one month despite the fact that she stays only 2 kms far..but knowing that she is going away a little far and I cannot see her anytime I wish to - is - killing me.
I have this over burdening hypothetical and projected feeling that she wouldn't be as close to me.
One of my worst fears.

- There have been rounds and various kinds of conflicts among friends. As we sat to discuss and sort things out - there wasn't much left to say.Nobody spoke much.And whatever we did was more in jest. I wonder why it got so awkward and difficult to convey.
Maybe sometimes you just cannot explain.
Maybe sometimes you just want the other person to understand everything by them self.
Whether they do or not is secondary though.
Because the best part is even in that brief mute meeting all cold vibes are hijacked in a jiffy when you giggle looking at each other. :P

-  Life ka aisa funda hai ki..
Stop forming opinions every flipping second.
What someone is doing or what someone said & how someone behaves is a rubbish collection of useless data : as long as it doesn't "really" affect you.
treat how you are treated. Or still better - don't treat at all.

Thats enough to survive blazing summers! Keep your head cool :P

- And add to it the fact that exams are kind of more fun than vacations. All of us friends are together the whole time! It is also interesting that nobody  runs out of funny topics to talk about while studying.
Our 'hard work' pays off by totally getting screwed in the exam.
 :O
Usually we all have this mechanism of predicting what questions are going to be asked. Atleast 4 on 6 on average are correct. This time, however , the topics we are skipping are making their way into the paper.
Now I don't really have this second theory that I should opt for these apparent topics that are NOT going to be asked. Its going to work the opposite anyhow!!

- I've got this laughter disease. I am constantly laughing on anything and everything. Even when a friend asks 'How was the exam?' - which she couldn't appear for because she was detained :D ( funny story that :P ) 
I've been banned from conference calls because my 'performance' - as one of them said - was below mark. Lol , hasne se fursat mile tab I'll speak anything ?! :|

- I won't be able to attend the housewarming party of my uncle. It should be called the palace warming party. They've built a 30,000 sq feet bungalow! - totally palace looking from outside and super modern from the inside. No switches and stuff. Automated. 
And ...I will be missing THE party!!
And see my bad luck..I've got the shitty exam right on that day in the blazing afternoon so I can't even catch the flight.
 I obviously have this urge to sit for makeup exam :P
but thats not going to happen [ the nth time I'm on this side of the argument !]
My friend adds fuel to the fire - tempting me to go.  
Exam toh chalte rehna hai..aise party kab hogi wapas?!
Read : GO ! So that I can beat your score. :o

I'm not competing re baba. I'm competing with myself. :P Seriously.
I think the above statement comes into action when you are scoring better than your friends.
Otherwise ..it would be like..
'Damn'
 'Chal dekhte is baar kitne milte' *very competitively*
'How many pages did you fill ?' *desperately*
'Tune toh sab kuch padh li hogi , hai na? Revision bhi ho gaya hoga 2 baar ?? :P'
lol ;)

the next exam is on Applied Operations Reasearch and I will be feel horrible if I don't screw it.
Gotto make it even.

'I like you!' NO WAY! :D

'I like you' is a killer statement.
One of the most confusing and ambiguous thing for someone to hear.
Too many questions.

So you like me as in just plain simple like me without me having to read between lines ?

Or

You like me and you want to take that to love me and furthur more ..getting to know better etc etc ?

Or

You like me and you just want to indulge in some harmless or harmful flirting for a while ?

Or

You like me and you want me to like you back exactly the same way ??

Or

You like me and that is just a white lie you're blurting to sugarcoat in order to deceive me into falling for you whereas you are only playing around ?

Or

You like me enough to kiss me and put a full stop right there ?

Or

You like me as a friend ..the best kind of like me and that you care for me , you are there for me no matter what ?

Or

You like me ..and you are just saying that for the heck of it!

So what kind of 'like you' do you like me ? ;)

..Sounds rather simple and easy , no ? -- In normal non-analytical state that is!

But when you know something  - why not know it in its perfect version?

Shoot.

Dad says

Don't let your thoughts kill you.


Kill your thoughts.

Pani da rang vekh k ..

Absolutely smitten by Ayushman.
I've always liked him as a host/anchor...but never knew he would do so well as an actor and even a singer! Just awesome!

Vicky donor is one of those light hearted movies with every element in the right place. And when you see someone act so effortlessly - it makes watching the movie all the more worthwhile.
Playing a punjabi guy mustn't have been too tough for him. Just loved his spontaneity.

Not only him..every other character in the movie was equally good.
 Loved the role of 'vicky's' modern grandmother.
Some very funny dialogues & scenarios!

And then ofcourse coming to the overall movie - it managed to deal with the subject of sperm donation very well. Plus also taking over the cultural differences and again tuning the message subtly.

A very realistic , sensible , decent & entertaining  movie - yet not very serious or preachy.
Thats a good combination to give a break from the otherwise bollywood bullshit.

I'm currently addicted to this song that Ayushman has sung. Its wonderful.

Types of presenters!

1. The ones in relaxingly ORDEAL state :
They don't know what to do. They don't want do anything either.  They might appear tensed about the assessment but it hardly makes any appearance during inputs!
They are dummies in the group - good for nothing! They will sit back and relax till the other members make the entire presentation and when everything is finalized , they will request
"Please give me the introduction slide"
Like seriously ?
But then  at the cost of presentation and their severe lack of knowledge , giving them over the introduction part is a safe bet.



2. The scared mice.
These are the ones little ahead of the type 1 presenters. Not only are they hardly aware like the ones above but  they are also scared about presenting. So they want to speak NOTHING.
Escaping the presentation fear with one slide is boon for them.
It doesn't take much for them to hit the PANIC button.
One blunder and whatever little they might have managed to mug up - will simply wash away.


 3.The muggers!
 Talking about mugging up - these are the ones who will learn every single word of the slide so that it doesn't looks like they are simply 'reading' from the slide. But the fact is that they do not add much to what is mentioned in the slides.
Who are they fooling anyway ?
These are the better halves of scared mice , only that they are confident about their mugging skills and have less chance of slipping.

4.The irritated presenters!
Making other  do the task is a challenge in itself. And one thing you learn in management - is , well - to manage others!
Dealing with the very relaxed and laid back students can be very pesky!


5. The average presenters.
They speak well. Their inputs are below average but they handle the presentation well.
So they might as well be forgiven by other members.
But they still remain average.

6.I will steal and speak someone else's part
These are the confused ones. No matter how many times you explain them what they are supposed to deal with in the presentation..they will go ahead and speak some other part - usually that part which the next presenter was supposed to say.
Since on an average almost everyone rehearses his or her part - it leaves the next one in line in more confusion.
Pity!

7.My body language says more than my words
If at all you are looking for a little entertainment in presentations - Never miss out witnessing the ones in this category. Their body language dominates everything else.
The slides may go to hell. What they speak may also go to hell. But HOW they do it is what takes the cake :D
Funniest presenters.
( No offense :P )

8.The presentation FREAKS :
These guys are the 'field workers'. Collecting and assorting data. Putting everything in line.
They will be all done with making presentation maybe in less than 2 days after being assigned.
They worship excel , powerpoint. IT guys!!
And since they are so fast with their work , they have enough time to devote to creativity.
Usually the others in class will wonder why do they have to be so amazingly creative every.single.time.
9. Sailing a storm type.
Enthusiastic lot. Vouching for both marks and recognition. They put in efforts .and get just about the result they want. But they usually have to put all the efforts themselves!
Their team mates are either scared mice or belong to the first category.
So its nothing short of sailing through a storm for them ;)

10.The presentation Lords!
The bestest and probably the most enviable of the lot! Not only are their presentation skills excellent but they are also very updated about their subject.
Enthusiastic and spontaneous!
These people don't vouch for marks..they justify their willingness and passion.
 Everybody else simple prays to be in their group !