140 km/hr

I love to drive my micra :D
Got a chance to drive on highway again. And this time I scampered at a speed of 140 km/hr.
That's the max speed I've been able to dart at.
And it was awesome :D

 An  instant plan made for a day trip. Instant with my circle would mean a plan made ATLEAST 12 hours before its commencement :P
I'd almost given up at a point. It was a bit annoying to coordinate with everyone. Calling , deciding , confirming , de-planning , almost cancelling ,  re-deciding , confirming , informing! :o
Eventually we all made it and am glad we did!

The place we landed at isn't too amazing. A lake and temple is all we had. A lake where having fun was restricted to paddle boating :P 
But with a bunch of crazy friends , every place is fun.

Last sem. The very last sem. 
 Hopefully I'd have better things and such trips to write about than the crap I've put up in last one year.

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There are always some issues in family. I think the person I take for granted the most is my mom. If she wants to vent .. if she wants to share... if she's mad and hurt...she would talk about it to me. Not the kind of talk where I console or offer any advice. The talk where I listen. The talk where she is HEARD.

Often I'm too busy in my phone , tv , newspaper to not hear a word she says. She would complaint about it and I'd try recollecting whatever little my ears catch. That's hardly compensating. Soooo taking for granted.

I've never had a very friendly relation with my mother , nor did I attempt at having one. It was long clear to me we wouldn't have that sort of rapport. And I've been OK about it. But ignoring her is wrong. Ignoring her is a sin. Coz it doesn't matter how much we share or not , doesn't matter how much I might have upset her previously and how much she upset me... what remains is - she is my mother who cares for me like no one other.
Strangely , sometimes my close friends share a better communication with her.
 It makes me feel so guilty.

Realizations though are good. Better late than never.

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I keep saying I'm or precisely - have grown heartless. Aky says its not possible. I pondered about it and yes maybe am not. Because I haven't been rendered emotionless.
So I figured there's a part of me , a part of my heart which was capable of feeling strongly has gone in limbo.

That explains everything else.

Why am not that over excited kid. Why I don't get a rush. Why am smiling but people sense something else and so on.

Although the best effect of this semi-dead heart is that I don't think much.  I don't form opinions , the philosophical dos and donts of life and I take everything , the good or bad - equally well.

I don't say bye.

You know I hate that part. The goodbyes. It really kills me.
Whether its me leaving the people I've spend time with which always seems like a dream.. or it is these people leaving me all alone at home after a week full of fun.

I didn't enter my room last night. I was dreading I'll end up crying. And when I cry.. I cry like a baby.  Yeah it feels bad..but aren't we too old to cry for such things ?

I handled it well though. Its a feeling. It'll pass.
My heart isn't heavy and sobbing.
 Its like am sedated.

I would have patted myself for being a little emotionally stronger . Its a good thing. It is something thats coming to me after a long long time. *smugs*

Last year ? Flew by , as usual.
Friends and fights. New friends. Wedding. Cousins.
Family politics and crap.
Usual except for the feud.

New year resolution : Just one.
Work out . Work out. Work out.
 Thrice more than before. Specially because I didn't stick to it for most of the year.

Risks and innovation. Such heavy title :P

If you write for a tough exam & do not get the right answers .. You feel bad.

When you write for an unexpectedly easy exam ... and yet make blunders. You feel worse.

But

When you write for  Financial Risk Management exam which goes well & 70% students think it was lollipop...

You just don't know how to feel!

Such exams are meant to be tough.

Now if someone asks me to just shut up and be happy that I did not make any intolerable silly mistake..

 I'd only say : RELATIVE GRADING SYSTEM.

When the probability of scoring good marks of everybody including myself  is more - it wouldn't help my pointer any bit.

Also , I've set a pattern in writing exams. No matter how much I study or how well I do - I end up screwing those very questions I feel I could write the answers of , in a blink of an eye.

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The word 'brave' has a new meaning for me. Experimenting with my hair.

The volume of my hair is already half of what it was before - thanks to the smoothening treatment. And after 6 months of marathon..I've finally been able to reduce the hair fall.

However the condition of my hair is bad. Despite that ,  I want to smoothen them AGAIN!

Thats brave :P

 I do like them wavy with curls forming towards the end.

But I cannot have a bad hair day everyday. So its decided!

Am at such lack of words and originality of thoughts..my hair is all I could talk about right now.

Anyhow , its been pending to put up this 'Project report' I made for a friend as a bday gift ( along with a really sexy clutch that I gave her )

A little background : She's fat super-healthy. She is beautiful. She's a true Punjabi :D

She hates college. She never made a single presentation herself. And her attendance-deficiency cost her detention from appearing for few papers in TWO sems :P

 

MBA

PROJECT REPORT

on

 “The loveliest craziest bold & beautiful Luvooo ;)”

By:

XYZ College.

A report submitted in partial  fulfillment of

MBA Friendship Program

For Birthday celebration 2012!

Under Guidance

Namrata

Submitted To:

Miss Loveleen

Please Note

This report is subject to market risk. Please read the document carefully and in full Humour.

No offence intended.

Acknowledgement  .

Special thanks to :

( All the friends )

INTRODUCTION

 Miss Loveleen  urf Luvza urf luvo urfo Looooveleen urf Loveleena urf Lovely! ( Yeah nobody gets it right in the first place!!! )  was born on 24^th November 1989.

Earth owes  2% of weight to her since then ;) :D

She was a good student until XYZ college happened to her.

And ever since then…Loveleen went downhill.

But she still managed to  survive the great torture --- thanks to her wonderful friends!

( Sorry , I just had to take some credit! :P)

Objective :

·      The objective of this report is to take Loveleen through the ups and downs of her 1.5 years of fun and frolic with her new friends at the college she hates the most :P

·     Secondly this is a memorabilia of some ROFL jokes made on her. ( No offence baby!! )

·     Her extremely caring friends intend to give her some tips on weight reduction ;)

·     Present a Gift list that will be converted in real gifts when her friends start earning some hard cash ;)

AAAAANDDDDDD !!! 

Ofcourse…this report celebrates  Her birthday!!!

Research

 The  research on gift list is based on the experience of her friends since the time they are with her.

1.    She is a shopaholic! So it goes without saying..the first things to top her gift list would be :

Louis Vuitton bags and clutch!! :P

           2.    Nailpaints. Like hundreds of them!!

Of shades APART from RED! :D

3.  FUNKY Footwear!

 This is the kind of stuff she likes : ---- >

With flowers and sparkle on them.!

Her friends would however gift her something of this sort ;)

Sexy and stylish :P

4.Clothes. Lots of clothes. BUT that would be gifted only if she reduces weight which she won’t

 => so no gift :P  ;)

5. Now lets get onto the weight tips. So the next gift would be….

:D

And then who knows..Loveleen might get offer to endorse the same product!

Or be the brand ambassador of Talwalkars or VLCC ;) :P

( Shhh..the weight reduction would be a secret ;) )

6. Luvs is a masterchef!

She loves food…so her friends would love to gift her a special dinner at a 7-Star hotel. :P

( No harm in dreaming na  ;) )

Ok..Enough about weight and clothes ..here’s some

FOOD FOR THOUGHT. Hope it makes you smile :)

1.  The only way to look thin is to hangout with fat people.

2.  Calories are small devils which always enter your wardrobe in your absence and sew your clothes.

3.  I was on diet from last three weeks and all I lost are three weeks.

4.  God if you can't make me thinner, make the world fatter!!

5.  I keep on trying to lose weight, but it keeps on finding me.

6.  I was meant to be thin... But god sewed me up wrong.

7.  The older you get, the tougher it is to lose weight because by then, your body and your fat are really good friends.

8.  You don't lose weight; you just look thinner from a distance.

9.  Joining a fitness club is a good idea, but only if you go to it. Just remember: the club has only one guarantee, that you'll pay a monthly fee.

10.              I’m on a seafood diet. I see food and I eat it.

11.                People are so worried about what they eat between Christmas and the New Year, but they really should be worried about what they eat between the New Year and Christmas.

12.                Inside some of us is a thin person struggling to get out, but they can usually be sedated with a few pieces of chocolate cake.

( found somewhere on the internet )

The one thing she would LOVE to see.

Attendance Register :

( From the start of the sem till the end )

Subjects .       

1. Retail Mgmt                    P P P P P P P P P P P P P P

2. Brand Mgmt                   P P P P P P P P P P P P P P

3. S & D                                  P P P P P P P P P P P P P P

4. Service Mgmt                P P P P P P P P P P P P P P

5.IHRM                        P P P P P P P P P P P P P P

6. T & D               P P P P P P P P P P P P P P=

7.PMC                  P P P P P P P P P P P P P P

8. HRP                  P P P P P P P P P P P P P P

Note :  The possibility of this is directly proportional to the thing called MAGIC.

:D

And here are the  statement that make for some ROFL jokes.

·      When Loveleen doesn’t come to college…it is MASS BUNK :P

·     Sare Sardar show off rehte hai ;)

·     Double roti

·     "new folder kaise banate hai ??”

·     “Excuse me waiter…One onion and NIMBU please”

·     “ We went to COAL” ( KOYLA :P )

Wish you a very very happy birthday! Keep smiling that gorgeous beautiful smile.

Stay sexy! :D

And eat like there’s no tomorrow :P

 Who cares about the weight ;)

 Followed by Messages from others

*I made it in flat one hour.Could have made structured it better had I got the time.

She loved it though ;) :P

A tinge of relief. A version of happiness.

The hard to find happy..

When mom understands me and consoles me. Even if it means not fully supporting me.

When I cook American Coupsey 'with readymade sauce' and my sister says..it was awesome.
Even though we both know it wasnt a big deal.

When I make someone happy on the day they expect the world to treat then like a celebrity.
Surprises can steal hearts.
That big broad smile on my friend's face.
Even though I hadn't been too good to her.

When someone understands the sound of your voice in texts.
Even if you think they don't care for you.

When you can comfortably laugh with you friends about your issues no matter how severe they may be.
Even if it doesn't allow any solution.

When I'd let go.
And my friend returns.
Even if it means it will never be the same.

When you start ignoring statements and situations that turn you into a nervous freak. That upset you. That don't let you be normal.
Even if it may mean...the strategy could fail at any point.

The post-Diwali post.

Jab tak hai Jaan literally took our jaan ! What a pathetic movie! :O
The first half is ultra boring. The story spins around a couple of dialogues that hardly make any sense..songs squeezed into the movie with no head and tail whatsoever. ZERO chemistry.

And yes..srk is old. So there's hardly any charm left to our love hero.

Katrina - whether she can act or not  - looks like a goddess. The outfits she has worn in the movie is the ONLY thing worth seeing.
SRK rocks in the army look. Rugged & rustic. That suits him much better than the happy-go-lucky-poor chap- look who tries so hard to seduce !!
With the army look - he needn't do anything.
Black t-shirt with black glares.Killer!

The only reason why I could survive through the first half was due to the ridiculous  comments we made :P Like how Anushka Sharma resembled a frog :D

The second half is tolerable. I was expecting something sad towards the climax. Turned out to be an absolutely DUMB end. Lets not even get into the story!

--- Skyfall : Ok I have no idea why people hated it. There were stream of comments on how the movie was the worst Bond film ever.The movie being more about M than our Agent 007 , so many loopholes etc etc.
But I liked it. Vulnerable Bond. Weaker. Kept me on hook till the end.
It may not fit the James Bond league..but as an action flick - it is worth a watch.
'Entertaining.'


* Diwali *
It has been a week long celebration for us. Just about the usual..dinner or lunch at some or the other cousin's place. But super fun as always.

I made this King size Rangoli.  The biggest I have attempted till date.
Took me a good 4-5 hours.  And since I haven't been exercising at all these days..the squatting gave me a good muscle pain for the next two days.

I haven't been writing much. Rarely. Just don't feel like it.

This happens to be my 350th post. Finally! :P

It kills.

I'm unable to WEIGH what has been happening.
Constantly trying to figure out what exactly went wrong.
Sometimes I feel everything did. Some other times it feels nothing at all.

Its as if the parts and parcels of our lives were inside a box..which were shaken so badly , some precious things fell out. Just like that.
And while I've been trying to pick those things and get them back into my box...they're probably replaced or broken. Or well ..don't want to be in that box anymore.

I am desperate to know to what extent have I been wrong..to what extent am I to feel guilty. But it doesn't sink in. Never felt so hollow and empty.

When you have a breakup..you go cry to your friends.
But when you break-up with your friends..whom do you go cry to ??

I wonder if I should have spoken less..or whether that could have gone terribly wrong too.

My patience was killed.I lost my temper. And I was blunt.
Even then..the problem really is that of Perception.
And it is annoying , displeasing and unconvincing how much things can change 'coz of the same.

Not much that can be done.

The outcome of the events is ultimately disastrous.

We'll be friends only in pictures now. Pictures of wonderful amazing time we've had.

Pictures , which I doubt will ever turn into reality again.

Apparently , it kills.

Nobody likes it.

The same stuff all over again.

Human behaviour is something you can do nothing about.

Ego is a parasite

Sometimes all you need is an answer for WHY.

I value my friendship more than my friend's ego. And yet it feels like am being blamed for a non existent fight.

Friends forever sadly has a shelf life.

And writing ? What happened to writing in all this chaos?
Turns out  all I was left with to submerge all the deafening screeching voices in my head - was to write.

Write it off.

Maybe after a while things would be normal but it wld not be the normal normal .

The same lesson again...
Things change. People change.
People change. Things change.

( only god knows why at such prime moments common sense & emotion evaporates ! )

But whatever the case maybe..in the end ..nobody likes losing friends.