Wiser ?

Wisdom is being able to dissect your feelings from a situation.

In some cases , wisdom is not letting emotions run too high on decisions.

 Some things are wrong because they're wrong. Feelings cannot make them right.

Wisdom is adapting to change ( something I miserably fail at! )

Wisdom is finding new ways than beating around the bush on a load of old crap.

Wisdom is in developing enough power to break bonds that cannot coexist.

Luck supports in extreme cases.
But at all other times. .its wisdom that you need the most!

Wisdom isn't all about making the right decision. Its about making one at the right time!

Vintage.And mad thoughts.

Too much has been going on in and around me. So many things in my head...the mashup made me not want to express any of it , at all.
But I certainly made some theories. At least so I could scribble them down!

Apart from that..the excitement quotient has been quite down.
Like doing absolutely NOTHING special for a VERY dear friend.
Or not really catching up to the vibrant energy at Hard Kaur's concert.
( She's rocking btw! )

I enjoyed the 'vintage' part of the month though.
Visited my aunt's ancestral home which is about 150-200 yr old. Needless to say...its beautiful.
Thick walls keeping the home so cool , wooden furniture , small windows with colorful glass , some portions of the house which I could describe as 'window-walls' , the 'tijori'.
 Every room on the first floor lead to the ground floor by separate staircase! And outside every room was a terrace!
Even though the house was built such a long time back..the architecture and design of the home is amazing. There were rooms inside rooms. Thin long corridors making it up for a perfect 'bhul bhulaiyaa'

The peace which one feels by being at such places is inexpressible. The house smells like  heaven.
And they've had quite a history. 50 goons had attacked few decades back and stolen a lot of jewellery and cash. Plus killed one of their grandfather.
There were swords hanging in the hall.Kinda gave an eerie feeling.

Moving onto some of my thoughts...

- You get mad because you're possessive.
And then you get much more possessive because you realize you are getting mad about this new found possessiveness.
..which makes you madder :P

- If you ask me did I forgive  ?
Well I would only say - unless someone feels sorry .. you do not even have the option to forgive!
Its easier to chuck it and not burn over it. Because maybe you keep fighting against forgiving and forgetting...but the person in question might have already scrapped you.

- Its good to be quiet. But the constant urge to tell someone something or let them know how you feel and yet knowing they would never 'get' it ...makes things difficult.
Some things cannot be explained. Some things do not deserve an explanation. They are only to be understood by oneself!

- There are times when you don't know what is right and wrong. You don't know which sides to take. But you ought to choose. Its a cocktail. Best thing then is to let things be and not try too hard to change any of it. Or derive too much from it.

- Maybe you loose friends to make space for new ones.

Thats all for now.
 Friends complaint  I 'think' more and do less.
I guess I should not say everything I think.

But even then...I finally sang in public. Ok not really public. Half of the batch was not even present.
But I did sing.

....To a romantic hindi song!
 Damn.

( I was criticized for  singing a hindi song. I usually sing English songs at college to a restricted audience. Sometimes even during classes :p )

Extinct theories.

Some concepts don't exist or hold strong ground anymore.

- Platonic love
For someone who believed in platonic love ..lust or as soberly termed 'expression of love' has scalped all such beliefs.

- best buddies do not fight.
They do.
They should not..but they do.
And the fight is usually a brutally cold argument.
Ego is a parasite.

-  Perfect families.
There is no such thing as that.
It might be a by-product of a broken divided family. But then , can you call THAT a  'perfect' family ??

-  Almost everyone hurts you.
Nope. You get hurt , all by yourself.
Cannot go around blaming 'everyone'

-  Love people and they will love you back.
Nature doesn't provide such law.
You cannot force someone to love you back. No matter how many millions you love them.

Normalization

=> I cannot dance like no one's watching.Because even when I'm dancing alone - I look at myself into the mirror which means that I'm watched by someone and that makes me conscious.I just am not able to dance in front of the mirror and its bothering me.The second reason being that I just realized I don't dance so well.Dancing was one of those things I always held high about me and I'm quite shattered to know I'm not so good at it.
Saw the video of my cousin's wedding where I danced.I was terrible.I couldn't believe my hand moments were such a mess.
No wonder why set B of my cousins never force me to dance , lol.
However Set A cousins always drag me to dance and shower a lot of praises ..so that explains why I over-estimated my dancing skills.

=> One of my close friends hops down to Mumbai every weekend & will continue hopping for few months which is making me feel bad.I told her how my weekends are gonna be dry to which she said her weekends are going to be extra dry - only studies.
And then I said "No! Away from home is Rain dance!" :D
I wonder why that didn't make her laugh because otherwise she laughs on every second thing I say , because otherwise we both laugh on every second damn thing.

=> Spilling cold water on face every now & then is refreshing.But brushing teeth in a smilar pattern can also make you feel extra fresh.Sometimes I happen to brush my teeth thrice a day.
Oh and I love how colgate tooth powder tastes.

=> I'm tired of keeping 4 different email accounts.Isn't there a way to merge them all ? Huh

=> Quenched my thrist or my thrist was quenched is the most overused phrase I've come across.Don't we have a substitute?

=> Without falling in love , I understand now what 'Don't change in love , let love change you' means.It basically hold for any kind of love.There's just a simple way to it : Don't frame how you want others to be.
Someone told me this long time back and I could never completely get the essence of it.I'm content that I do GET it now.
To add my theory on it : Save surprises in life.Because sometimes you meet people you never imagined and unknowingly you start fancying them even when those are not the kind you've ever framed in your mind - to be around with.

=> I have created a seperate blog to scribble more to avoid being judged.Its funny how this blog came into existance to be my outlet for expression and now I'm feeling the need to run away to a new place just so that I'm not read.My hideous dwelling is giving me a sense of freedom.There are some things thats cannot be left unexpressed and the kind that you don't want people who already know you..to read.

=> I want to change my blog URL.The other day someone marked 'powerdrunk' is manly , lol.No wonder it scares a lot of people + I wonder why I ever chose that :|
And then I want my Set A cousins to read my blog too which means that some stuff from here needs to be edited , and some more to be shifted to my other blog.

=> I don't think I'll get over the remixed version of the song 'summer jam' ( which happens to be almost a decade old ) even by the time winter is gone.

=> If you haven't read Message Log 4 as yet >> its your loss :P

This is such a non hyper , non depressing post.Normal.I like myself for that.