Default equations

Oversmart = Stupid
Have two dozen medals/certificates to show off ..and yeah that hell as might be 'intelligent' , but in the end if you're oversmart + weird , you are stupid.
Therefore , K - you suck!

I'm so glad I could say this after all these years.
I always thought it sucks when my opinion about you flips every now & then.I mean yes , EVERY time.
But I've figured it out ( finally ) that I'm not to be blamed of being fickle minded or of having varied opinions if you're a CHAMELEON!

M you suck too! Ek reason ho toh bataon ? You just suck.Without knowing you or knowing you little that I do , I can say so.
Because weird = weird.
Nobody can do much here!

This is the default list.
I'm gonna put more people in my list who suck so that I can chuck them out of my life.

I'm quite miserable these days but do not intend to make others around me miserable .Therefore I don't talk much.Not of my problems.Everyone has problems.And add mine to that..its like evergreen problems.Gum like.No solution.Life se chipki huyi.
Fevicol ka jod :P

Haha.I'm laughing right now which is good.Because when I intended to shower my misery on my blog - I was assuming it to be highly sad.
Maybe the chocolate fantasy I just had at ccd is making my day.
And also talking my heart out with T.
Feeling good momentarily.

STILL.I have to keep reminding myself that I don't have to feel bad with whatever it is.
With whoever it is.I have to tell myself to be composed.If not calm.
And I also have to scream to myself : not to get attached.Not again.For no reason :
Expectations I keep.It only sucks when my imagination gets 'pathetic'.I weave wonderful stories.That's where it gets pathetic , specially since none of that is going to be true .
So naive of me.

Anyway , penning this is such a liberation.

And I also have a theory on pampering :
It feels incredibly great - to be pampered.But don't pamper someone so much that they become habitual to it.Don't make it a habit for them.Because some day when ya stop , it hurts.It bloody hurts a lot.
I feel , its somewhere equivalent to betraying : when you stop.Untill then its probably heaven.
Therefore , Do not pamper much.Limits.
And if it is so..then for the being-pampered party , I have an advice : Don't pay much attention.
Know to keep all the heart-breaking bullets at a distance.
Resistance is necessary.

Since YOU are great

How could YOU be so narrow minded ?
How can YOU say those things ?
How can a GREAT person like you keep aside all your greatness & look down upon it as if it was never yours ?

I admired you the most.I still do! But there's a little string pulling me back & that is of the respect that am losing for you.
But I know I would still admire you.Because I learn from you.And I would always respect you.For petty irrational unthought fierceful words ought to be neglected.

Why is it happening to you ? Why to us ? Weren't we suppose to celebrate life EVERYDAY ?
You said that just last night , didn't you ??
Why is our world shrinking ?
We don't deserve to spend another painful moment.Then why don't you lighten up the mood because its only you who brings the CHANGE - good or bad worst.

The day it was my mistake , I deserved your wrath.I accepted it naturally.I did not shake.I did not grumble.
The night you left me feel like a worm in your life for a reason that seems pretty obvious that I'm not what you wanted me to be...still leaves me shaken.I was so shattered.

Now , I've become numb.I'm sure this is just one of those phase which we are jinxed with.I know we'll move on.I know we'll not talk of this again.
I'm not upset.But until we reach back to NORMAL , its going to be a painful process.

My hopes never die because I don't keep hopes with these things.
I'm just SO DAMNED SURE , it will have an END.
THE END

FOREVER.

Because YOU are a GREAT person & YOU won't 'carry forward the past'.
That still rings in my ears.
Why just say it , why not follow ?

Let's CHEER up & not TEAR our lives apart.